The best way to know the self is feeling oneself at the moments of reckoning. The feeling of being alone, just with your senses, may lead you to think more consciously. More and more of such moments may sensitize ‘you towards you’, towards others. We become regular with introspection and retrospection. We get ‘the’ gradual connect to the higher self we may name Spirituality or God or just a Humane Conscious. We tend to get a rhythm again in life. We need to learn the art of being lonely in crowd while being part of the crowd. A multitude of loneliness in mosaic of relations! One needs to feel it severally, with conscience, before making it a way of life. One needs to live several such lonely moments. One needs to live severallyalone.

Tuesday, 21 October 2014

अश्रुओं में आये हुए इंद्रधनुष से..

शांति के रंग नेत्रों में 
अश्रुओं में आये हुए इंद्रधनुष से 
आकर आज थम गए हैं 
सोचते हुए अब तक के जीवन पर 
बातें करते हुए मानस से 
आत्मा के सामंजस्य में 
स्मृतियों का ये स्पंदन नवीन है 
इनका विस्तार कहता है  
सीखते रहना और चलते जाना 
जीवन की कठिनाइयों के साथ 
और संताप को जीते जाने की 
की निरंतरता के साथ 
अश्रुओं में आया इन्द्रधनुष कहता है 
धैर्य रखना और चलते जाना 
स्वार्थी सरोकारों से होते हुए 
उदासीन कोनों में रहते हुए 
और स्वयं को पुनः पा लेना 
उस जीवन पथ पर 
जो छल के आवरण में 
कहीं लुप्त हो गया था 
ये आनंद के अश्रु कहते हैं नेत्रों से 
समय अब आ गया है 
अब और विलाप नहीं..

शांति के रंग नेत्रों में, अश्रुओं में आये हुए इंद्रधनुष से, आकर आज थम गए हैं 
सोचते हुए अब तक के जीवन पर, बातें करते हुए मानस से, आत्मा के सामंजस्य में 
स्मृतियों का ये स्पंदन नवीन है, इनका विस्तार कहता है, सीखते रहना और चलते जाना 
जीवन की कठिनाइयों के साथ, और संताप को जीते जाने की की निरंतरता के साथ 
धैर्य रखना और चलते जाना, स्वार्थी सरोकारों से होते हुए, उदासीन कोनों में रहते हुए 
और स्वयं को पुनः पा लेना, उस जीवन पथ पर जो छल के आवरण में कहीं लुप्त हो गया था 
ये आनंद के अश्रु कहते हैं नेत्रों से, समय अब आ गया है, अब और विलाप नहीं

अश्रुओं में आये हुए इंद्रधनुष से..

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - 

Monday, 20 October 2014


Though NCP has announced unconditional outside support to BJP for forming the government in Maharashtra, when Narendra Modi addressed NCP as 'naturally corrupt party' during campaigning in the run-up to the assembly polls, it was not without reasons.

Many high level politicians from NCP and Congress have been facing allegations of corruption and many had to resign. The list includes chief minister and deputy chief minister besides many other ministers and politicians.

The nation cannot easily forget the 'forced resignation', a hastily brought whitepaper to declare Ajit Pawar clean in the irrigation scam and his 'reinstatement'. It was all in bad taste.

And the 15 years of NCP-Congress combine rule had no dearth of such newsmaking headlines going deep on follow-ups.

Every year, if thousands of farmers are forced to commit suicide, in a so-called prosperous and industrialized state, Maharashtra, and if the state sees huge scams like the irrigation scam worth 70,000 crore, nothing but political corruption is to be blamed.

Similar was the case in Haryana.

A chief minister belonging to the main opposition party was out on bail sighting health reasons.  He was jailed after found guilty in a recruitment scam. He misused the terms of his bail to campaign in the polls and was sent again to jail by the high court.

The last chief minister was alleged of mammoth scales of corruption, though nothing proved yet. Family biases and nepotism ran deep in Haryana. And it is not always necessary that court verdicts drive the sentiments. In electoral politics, it is all about perceptions and the perception that corruption was running deep in Haryana had made deeper inroads in the psyche. 

The nation cannot easily forget the largesse shown to Robert Vadra and the witch-hunting against an honest official, Ahok Khema, for taking on Robert Vadra because he found his case violating norms.  The Hooda government went out of the way in clearing the deal for Vadra the nation saw it. And the nation also saw how defiantly the previous chief minister defended his acts perceived to be wrong and corrupt by the common man, the common man who sent him packing in the just concluded elections.

Allegations of widespread corruption and nepotism in Haryana civil services are a regular feature to decorate the news headlines. Then there were case studies like Gopal Goyal Kanda.  

And the electors were watching, in Maharashtra and Haryana, waiting for a chance, that they saw in promises of Narendra Modi, to bring the politics of development back on track, and to deal with political corruption. 

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey -


October 19, 2008, Sunday - Raj Thackeray was blamed for inciting the mob  of his partymen. He had been crying loud and talking provocative against the people he considered 'outsiders' in Maharashtra who had become parasitic on Marathi Manoos.

North Indian students in Mumbai to take a Railways recruitment exam were targeted and beaten by the members of Maharashtra Navnirman Sena (MNS) led by Raj Thackeray. It was one of the most ghastly acts of political 'goondaism' unleashed by MNS and its 'political' hooligans. Means of public transport including trains were hit hard. Raj Thackeray was shouting and sloganeering, from over the top. His brandishing of the 'Marathi Manoos' sword was getting harsher and harsher. And it was not just in Mumbai. The goons were operationalized in areas where MNS had impact and where MNS had wanted to create a constituency of its own exploiting the Marathi sentiments of the Marathi votebank. The arrogance and disregard to the democratic values were reeking.

October 19, 2014, Sunday - No one was  where Raj Thackeray was. It could not be said with 'a degree of newsworthiness' if he was sought at all yesterday, or even today.

Yes, he was making for headlines with his anti-North Indian rant while campaigning for the Maharashtra assembly polls. His interviews were carried where he spoke in his trademark ways that we had been watching since his separate advent on Maharashtra political scene after leaving his uncle Bal Thackeray and Shiv Sena he wanted to head after the senior Thackeray. His sky-high ego was brought down in a grand way yesterday when his 'style of politics' was rejected by the voters and his party was crushed mercilessly by the electorate. It was just yesterday when Raj Thackeray was being discussed as a possible kingmaker in Maharashtra politics. And today, he is staring at total annihilation of his political life with his party shrunk to just one assembly seat and a vote share of just 3%, down from 13 seats and around 12% voter share in 2009.

From an October Sunday in 2008 to an October Sunday of 2014 - on 19th of October - ironies of day, date and fate - that have forced Raj Thackeray to hide behind his shattered arrogance, the shield of which is already fragmented.

Raj Thackeray may not be able to hide in his own layer with such a fragmented shield of humiliated arrogance, but no one is seeking him either, at the moment, not even his Marathi Manoos, who played a significant role in hunting and humbling him down. 

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey -

Sunday, 19 October 2014


Narendra Modi didn't campaign (or intensively campaigned) in the bye-elections held after BJP's high voltage performance in the Lok Sabha election 2014 that made it the first party to get majority on its own after 1985.

And BJP languished in these bye-elections - first in Uttarakhand, then in four states including Bihar, and then in 9 states including Uttar Pradesh, Gujarat and West Bengal.

The negative talking points against BJP's performance simply outnumbered  the few positives that it gained in these bye-elections with the later two important bypolls seen and analysed as 'acid test' or 'semi final' or 'test of the Modi Wave' before the upcoming assembly elections in Maharashtra, Haryana, Jammu & Kashmir and Jharkhand.

And BJP failed in these 'semi-final' sort of tests. Bypoll verdicts gave voices to everyone. Congress, JDU, Samajwadi Party, RJD, Shiv Sena, and other parties and the leaders of these outfits. They took on BJP with their customized reasons.

But the undercurrent was - assembly polls were different than parliamentary elections and BJP needed its allies. And the favourite talking point of the opponents was - Modi Wave was receding or had gone away, especially after poor show in Uttar Pradesh and Bihar bypolls.

But did Narendra Modi and the Modi Wave fail?

No. The Maharashtra and Haryana poll verdicts say so.


Factors at play: Huge anti-incumbency + Ruling Party/Alliance Corruption + Modi Wave/Modi Factor + Promises of Developmental Politics.

Narendra Modi didn't campaign in bypolls: BJP languished. Modi campaigned extensively in assembly polls, inviting sarcastic remarks from his opponents and allies that he should have stayed focused on delivering in Delhi: BJP registers historic victories in Harayana and Maharashtra. It re-establishes the Modi Wave discourse as the central theme of political analyses on upcoming elections, Jammu & Kashmir and Jharkhand.

Maharashtra verdict: It was also about realignment of political affiliations and alliances in Maharashtra with new realities and changed circumstances and BJP has emerged as the clear winner. Parties contesting on their own to realize their political grounds - it had become politically imperative after decades of fighting together in alliances. It was to happen, sooner or later. But no Pankaja Munde or anyone like her, with being the daughter or son of a top politician as the only qualification, as the claimant of chief minister's chair please. In absence of an acceptable face to all, BJP may decide on Nitin Gadkari.

Out of NCP, Congress and Shiv Sena, the biggest setback goes to Shiv Sena. It is the biggest loser in spite of registering growth, in seats and in vote share. Many in the party would be rightly thinking now, that just for 5 seats, they lost the 'senior ally' in Maharashtra tag, and that too, by a huge margin. Yes, they are the second largest party in Maharashtra assembly but their 63 seats are nowhere near to BJP's 122 seats, given the fact that BJP had been acting as the junior partner of Shiv Sena in Maharashtra and was ready to do so even this time, agreeing to contest on lesser number of seats than Shiv Sena in the failed seat-sharing talks.

Saturday, 18 October 2014

के कोई मलाल ना रह जाए..

मैं नहीं जाता अब उस जगह 
फिर भी वहां की दरकती हुई दीवारें दिखाई देती हैं
और गिरती ईंटें अभी भी चोट पहुंचाती हैं
हर बार, किसी ताजा घाव की तरह
जैसे कोई बेरहम रंजिश अपना बदला मांग रही हो
मैं नहीं जाता अब वहां
पर पाता हूँ अपने ख्यालों को भटकता हुआ
उस अनजान हो चले दायरे में
कोशिश करता हूँ की दूर जा पाऊं
और महसूस ना करूँ ये भटकाव बार बार
पर शायद, इन ख्यालों की रूह चाहती है के
कोई मलाल ना रह जाए..

के कोई मलाल ना रह जाए.. 

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey -

Friday, 17 October 2014


The rainbow in tears,
With colours of peace, 
In a pair of wet eyes,
Reflecting on so far, 
Speaking up the mind,
In harmony with soul
The learning, 
With odds of life to meet, 
The poise of living the pain,
Through the selfish corners, 
Breathing the indifference,
Earning the salvage, 
To be on the journey,
Lost in chaos of duplicity
Tears of joy tell the eyes,
Now is the time,
Have no more cries..

“The rainbow in tears with colours of peace in a pair of wet eyes
Reflecting on so far, speaking up the mind in harmony with soul
The learning with odds of life to meet the poise of living the pain
Surviving through the selfish corners, breathing the indifference
Earning the salvage to be on the journey lost in chaos of duplicity
The tears of joy tell the eyes, now is the time, have no more cries”


©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - 

Thursday, 16 October 2014


October 16: My Third Blogging Milestone Day 

Yesterday, I completed three years of posting something, on a day to day rhythm, a work of mine - an article, a photograph, a quote, a poem or digital experiments on images - at least one of them every day, on this blog here, Beyond This Life, my first blog that I created on July 1, 2009. 

On October 16 in 2011, it was now some days that I had been thinking of making it a routine, a discipline, to look for 'meaningful' meanings in life after a series of huge emotional setbacks that had left me almost devastated, emotionally as well as existentially. 

I was continuing with life, yet I was not living it. Throughout my whole life till then, I had arrived at meanings of events and elements of life on my own, with my identity firmly in place. And I bought what I spoke. I lived for what I was, for what my thoughts were. 

But, the series of setbacks left me rushing for to call the meanings that had been pivotal so far. They had stopped responding. There was a nagging element of deepening mutual irrelevance. And my devastation was so acute that I was not able even to track down the meaning of the 'meanings' with the energy I was left with, even if I could. Something was killing 'a person' in me. My honestly cultivated life of 'living severally alone' was taking a severe beating, by detractors, by time, by moments, and by the people I cared for. 

But like it is said the absolute hopelessness has elements of hope in-built; that there comes the lowest point on fall beyond which the journey goes always up. 

I am yet to dissect on 'what led to', or probably I am not willing to look into at this moment, but I could see that ray of hope, I could identify those elements to pick up to enable me to be on the journey up. 

And one of those major elements was this discipline with writing and posting something daily on my blog, something that was my own creation. Before it, my blog did have entries of others, though very few in numbers, but after it, it was all mine. 

It was first on October 14 that year when I decided to begin but somehow could not post the October 15 entry in time. By the time I hit the 'publish' button, it was already October 16. But that was it. I posted another one on October 16, 2011 and it has been continued since then. 

Yes, I had no idea on how long to go with, some future roadmap on it, a timeframe for which I would like to continue doing so. To sum up, it had no ultimate goal. 

It built on day after day, week after week, month after, and then, year after year. There were small 'scales' to scale. There were small goals to achieve. There were randomly made thoughts to work on. And the events followed the continuity on the chain. With the central theme being maintaining the continuity, to have the chain remain unbroken. 

Wednesday, 15 October 2014



Blogging Milestone Day Number 1: July 11 - when I completed 1000 days of continuous blogging in July this year - at least a blog-post a day without a break

Blogging Milestone Day Number 2: October 15 - completing three years of blogging without a break - averaging more than a post a day

Completing three years today on a journey that took a spontaneous change with no further thoughts on the roadmap ahead, driven by the only urge to look for the 'other life' in life - the journey that was to become a liberating experience, a joy to free the senses from bondages and from baggage - a learning to learn each day and keep on leaning every next day.

Completing three years today on this journey that has given me the strength of being a liberated soul who fights back and tries to overcome - day after day.

Completing three years today on the journey treasuring and assimilating the joy of creating through expressions and expressing through creations - work after work.

Completing three years today on the journey flowing on words, making the words flow, capturing life on the go, capturing motion in the moving stillness - from this genre to that.

Completing three years today on the journey, a journey of going beyond, a journey on the path to the 'oneness with the soul'.

Completing three years today, October 15, 2014, on this continued, unbroken chain on the journey that had its formal initiation on an organized platform of expression on July 1, 2009 with my first blog here, 'Beyond This Life'.

Yes, it has been a journey of experiences in thoughts ever since I started working on 'Beyond This Life' in 2009 but its more rigorous, rewarding and satisfying phase began on October 16, 2011 when I found myself embarked on a journey within 'me' that had so much to say and express. 

October 15, 2014 - its three years now from the October day in 2011 on 'Beyond This Life' and it still speaks to me in the way it had spoken to me on October 16, 2011.

©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey - 


"I don't go to that place anymore yet I see it's falling bricks every day,
They hit me like a fresh wound, each time, exacting a cruel retribution,
The existentialist finds his senses wanderlust in the lost realm,
I try not to feel but thoughts prefer to embrace the atonement.."

I don't go to that place,
Yet I see,
It's falling bricks every day
They hit me,
Like a fresh wound,
Each time,
Exacting a cruel retribution
The existentialist,
Finds his senses wanderlust,
In the lost realm
I try not to feel,
but thoughts prefer,
To embrace the atonement..


©/IPR: Santosh Chaubey -